Yes, no..... Yes, no.... Yes, no....... I was in such a confused state of mind two months back...... Deciding something big in life is not that easy guys, sometimes your decision depends on a split second that has the power to change your life.... Well, I got married four months back and since then I have been travelling. My travel mostly lead me to some or the other conclusion about a lot of things. When we go out and see different places, there are a lot of things that attract you, lot of things that make you think, lot of things that make you feel sad, lot of things that make you feel angry and quite a lot of things that make you feel helpless.... In my recent visits, believe me or not but I have gone through all these emotions... Ya but I can tell you the feeling of helplessness is the worst one... It shakes your mind, and every single nerve of the body from head to toe....
We mostly prefer travelling by car if the destination allow us to.... Travelling by road gives you a very good chance to observe life... Life of a tree, a plant, an animal, a butterfly and of course, life of a human.... With such a pain, a buffalo carrying five times the weight it should carry.... Head tilted to one side, he was doing his duty for survival... His face showed no sign of pain but somewhere deep inside my heart I was pinched.... What if I was asked to do that????? Then I included his master in my thoughts.... With his economic conditions, what else could he do???? I saw a lot of similar cases.... Horses and cows carrying stuffs that we cant even imagine..... I took few minutes to sob over it, and ordered my mind to avoid any such scene that would make me feel helpless.... In simple words, like a coward I was running away from my thoughts that were revolutionizing... I somewhat controlled my thoughts and diverted my mind... But every single time I went out, I saw things that I wanted to avoid...... And it made me more and more upset...... Those scenes started speaking to me, it looked out as if they were asking something.... But I continuously neglected them and continued to be the helpless one...
My last trip was to Jamshedpur, my birth place, where I learned the biggest lesson of my life... On the day of my departure, I saw something that changed my thought process completely.... I had to buy a pen drive, so my husband and I were wandering from one place to another in Telco.... It was early morning so most of the shops were closed,,,, We finally decided to give one last try..... So, we rushed to Azad market.... The shops there where opened, the fruit vendors were cleaning there stalls..... I can never forget what I saw there.... A thin, light brown color dog with his tail inside, was standing on the road.... Vehicles were passing by, but he was standing still..... He could not move because his hand was infected( the condition is called as Gangrene).... His had was swollen, it had a very deep cut which might have lead to this condition.....I could see patches of fungus on his skin,,,,, The septic was spreading and there are chances that this could lead to his death if not treated.... I was so captivated by his condition that it took me some moments to control my self.... He was not screaming out of pain, neither was he asking for help because that poor animal cant speak... He cant express his pain... He had no one with him.... I saw the fruit vendor shouting at him... He wanted him to go away but the dog was in no mood to walk..... He could not I guess.... I, like an idiot, like some stupid audience just stood there and felt helpless.... I tried to imagine the kind of pain he might be in but frankly it was too much to imagine... when we get a small cut also, we panic, and shout out for help.... And in few seconds a whole lot of people surround us..... but he, he had no one around him... he stood alone.... I can never forget the expression that I saw in his eyes... My heart throbbed, sobbed and what not.... But I could not do anything for him..... I ran from there...... I cried for several moments but this time it was it.... It changed something in me.... something that I know off.... The feeling of helplessness killed me from inside and I took a decision..... A decision that will change my life......
We mostly prefer travelling by car if the destination allow us to.... Travelling by road gives you a very good chance to observe life... Life of a tree, a plant, an animal, a butterfly and of course, life of a human.... With such a pain, a buffalo carrying five times the weight it should carry.... Head tilted to one side, he was doing his duty for survival... His face showed no sign of pain but somewhere deep inside my heart I was pinched.... What if I was asked to do that????? Then I included his master in my thoughts.... With his economic conditions, what else could he do???? I saw a lot of similar cases.... Horses and cows carrying stuffs that we cant even imagine..... I took few minutes to sob over it, and ordered my mind to avoid any such scene that would make me feel helpless.... In simple words, like a coward I was running away from my thoughts that were revolutionizing... I somewhat controlled my thoughts and diverted my mind... But every single time I went out, I saw things that I wanted to avoid...... And it made me more and more upset...... Those scenes started speaking to me, it looked out as if they were asking something.... But I continuously neglected them and continued to be the helpless one...
My last trip was to Jamshedpur, my birth place, where I learned the biggest lesson of my life... On the day of my departure, I saw something that changed my thought process completely.... I had to buy a pen drive, so my husband and I were wandering from one place to another in Telco.... It was early morning so most of the shops were closed,,,, We finally decided to give one last try..... So, we rushed to Azad market.... The shops there where opened, the fruit vendors were cleaning there stalls..... I can never forget what I saw there.... A thin, light brown color dog with his tail inside, was standing on the road.... Vehicles were passing by, but he was standing still..... He could not move because his hand was infected( the condition is called as Gangrene).... His had was swollen, it had a very deep cut which might have lead to this condition.....I could see patches of fungus on his skin,,,,, The septic was spreading and there are chances that this could lead to his death if not treated.... I was so captivated by his condition that it took me some moments to control my self.... He was not screaming out of pain, neither was he asking for help because that poor animal cant speak... He cant express his pain... He had no one with him.... I saw the fruit vendor shouting at him... He wanted him to go away but the dog was in no mood to walk..... He could not I guess.... I, like an idiot, like some stupid audience just stood there and felt helpless.... I tried to imagine the kind of pain he might be in but frankly it was too much to imagine... when we get a small cut also, we panic, and shout out for help.... And in few seconds a whole lot of people surround us..... but he, he had no one around him... he stood alone.... I can never forget the expression that I saw in his eyes... My heart throbbed, sobbed and what not.... But I could not do anything for him..... I ran from there...... I cried for several moments but this time it was it.... It changed something in me.... something that I know off.... The feeling of helplessness killed me from inside and I took a decision..... A decision that will change my life......
I will always carry the guilt of not saving him......
ReplyDeleteSo nicely written.. Your words are showing your inner feelings, even i can feel.. Well this is very serious matter and its very difficult task to do anything for these animals. Seriously such a helplessness condition, can't do anything. Even i feel the same too for such small kids on red lyts, bus stands etc who are pressurised to do smthing to sell, to beg or other activities and the only reason is our Indian govt or i can say their family not able to do smthing for their kids.. Such a big issue!! We can only do one thing and that is IGNORE.. Huh!!! Seriously i want to do smthing but not able to do or i can say not in my own hand.
ReplyDeleteAt times like these one is helpless and has no idea whay to do and how to do.
ReplyDeleteAnimal care care centres are far and few inbetween (in India)
Some where in a blog I read about the bluecross who comes to the aid in such cases, if we call them.
oh! thanks a lot.....
Delete102,1298,108,112 these are the number for any kind of medical help even for animal in India.You wrote fir time true incident of life but as usual like your previous stories, written very nicely with full of true emotions.We hope same way you will keep writing and we would get more and more from you.
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