Traffic

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Traffic traffic traffic...... when you decide to step out of the house, the first thought that comes to your mind is, God! Please save me from this hideous traffic. Not that there was no traffic problems in Bangalore, but Delhi is Delhi. The traffic is getting worse day by day. If we start for a place, sometimes its impossible to say how much time would it take to reach the destination. And now days, its not just the traffic but people have become careless towards driving. Well, in the past few days, I have observed and faced quite a few things that I would like to share. According to me, a person who gets a vehicle for himself believes that he/she is all set to go and rock the roads with there F grade driving skills. Oh! hello! Please get a reality check. The roads are not made for amateur drivers. These amateur drivers are the biggest threat on the roads who are responsible for most of the traffic problems. I don't say that a person who is new to driving should not drive, I just stand by the point of mastering your basics so that neither you be a pain on the road nor be the cause for one.

That was about amateur drivers, the other bunch are the overconfident rather reckless ones. They feel as if the road was made for and by them, that they know every bit about it. Few days back, this reckless auto driver was enjoying his gala time in his gala land, this is when he dashed into the bumper of a Honda City, crushed it completely and later banged into the utility pole. His overconfidence and recklessness caused him a lot. Not only he was hurt but his auto was damaged completely from one side, and all this happened because this stupid man was sitting crossed legs and this is why, he could not apply the breaks and to garnish his carelessness, he was busy listening to music with his headphones in his ears. Now tell me, how could he hear the Honda City blowing the horn, how could he apply the breaks when his legs were folded and how could he come out of his wonderland and apply little brains to avoid the accident by being aware. He hit one, crushed his car, then hit the pole, hurt himself and crushed his auto, all because he was overconfident of his driving. This is just one among-st several cases. I should feel bad for his injuries, but then his actions don't let me.

There are times when its an emergency, and we need to reach at places in time, but this reason sometimes is not enough to imperil someone else's life. People suffer loses and face accidents because they try to save someone's life. I have faced one, where we tried to save the life of an animal and got hit by another vehicle. Keep this in mind, once when your on the road your not just you but an Idol Citizen of this country and above all a human being. So please live and let live.

Dreams

'Excuse me! What the hell was that? What kinda dream it was?', there are mornings when I wake with a question mark on my face. I see a lot of dreams, may be because I love sleeping, and have spent most of my life sleeping.... :D... In an average, I see four to five dreams in one night. But whenever I wake up, they are gone. Some dreams are captured by my memory cells others just vanish..... Well, these dreams comes with quite a lot of emotions.... They are mostly related to my recent thoughts or activities.... Two days back, I saw Tuffy( my sweet pup) in my dream. It was so damn real, I could actually feel his presence, his fur was so shiny and soft against my skin and his lovely eyes. Oh! And when I woke up, it was gone. The feeling of rejoice just vanished leaving me with tears..... Aah! I was missing him a lot which is why I dreamt of him. Switching on to my other dreams, I recently saw that I was getting married again and when I shared this dream with my husband, he was happy and partying...... I was stumped with his reaction.... anyways jokes apart..... I have observed one thing no matter in what ever state of mind your in, there is this feeling of what actually exist in our real world.... Though the feeling stays for a short while, until it takes you to a state of mind where your so confused...... Confused about what is real and what is not..... And as the time passes, it engulfs your thoughts completely and leaves you with no other option but watch it happen.... You like it or not but it still plays..... And the sad part lies with a fact that you cant alter or change those events......... There are dreams where I feel so helpless and suffocated because I cant see anything clearly or at times when I cant stop things going around me..... The hangover of these dreams are the worst because you can still feel the irritation and helplessness in your thoughts......

Well, one of my most common dream stars me as a villain who is always suppose to fall.... And I must say either I have some special powers in my dreams or my landing skills are perfect, at the end of the fall there is no one hurt... (Excuse me! With no one I mean myself).... Cheers..... Few months back when I was in Bangalore, I saw this dream starring Heena (one of my closest friend) and of-course the star of the evening, ME ;)........ I remember most of it....... There's this Forum Mall in Koramangala, Bangalore......which was very close to my place... It was my second house during the weekends..... "So as per my dream", we both were somewhere around this mall and suddenly something happened.... I don't know whether it was some Alien attack or Nature's Act but in few seconds the buildings around us started to fall.... Trees uprooted, cracks on the roads, buildings crashing down like pack of cards..... The scene changed into the sets of 2012.... We both were running from here to there... I encountered a lot of faces that I had never seen in my life, well with this I remember one more fact about my dreams.... I see a lot of faces, faces that I have never seen but still they talk to me as if they know me since birth...... Anyways coming back to this 2012 dream, so we, Heena and I was running from one place to other...... I saw scenes that were so different from the screen...... Might be because I could feel them.....I could smell blood, could see the dance of death, could hear pain through the cries and screams, could taste fear...... It seemed as if everything was coming down....... One day of life, one day of death, one day of laugh, one day of cry, one day of love, one day of loss, one day of ???????? That one day had it all....... Ah!!!! And the worse part was that I could not do anything as always......... I saw myself jumping over some other building to save my life...... everything was happening so fast that I don't even remember how and when I woke up, and my dream vanished......

Few days back, I heard about a lift falling down....... I kept thinking about it.... and by doing this I invited trouble..... So, in my dream I am stuck in a lift which suddenly starts falling down..... it crashes and the scene changes...... I saw some of the known faces, some as always UN-KNOWN, mourning at something...... It took few seconds for me to realize that I was dead.... Yes friends, I was dead.... and mind it han... the cause of my death is beyond imagination....this is damn hilarious..... I was the only one who died in the accident due to some side effect of a medicine that I was taking... who knows what was that medicine...... the doctor declared that the cause of my death was- 'a mysterious medicine'.... Can u believe it.... and this dream has now become a hot joke in my family........ These dreams I must say.... There are dreams that really touch my heart and soul....... Dreams that I never wanna see again and pray to God that they never come true and for some, I really pray to God and want them to come true..... Dreams in which I see my Grandfather are the best ones, it feels as if he has come back for us and he's here..... Every part of my body screams for this dream to come true....... I see him, he talks to me and when I wake up he's gone.... I hate this part..... But at least I am happy that I have these dreams which help me to see and feel things which otherwise couldn't happen.......

Dreams, I believe, are a source.... A source that high-lights our inner feelings, and portrays our thoughts in a cinematic fashion..... So friends, keep dreaming.......... :):):):):)

                                           

Reality bash

Yes, no..... Yes, no.... Yes, no....... I was in such a confused state of mind two months back...... Deciding something big in life is not that easy guys, sometimes your decision depends on a split second that has the power to change your life.... Well, I got married four months back and since then I have been travelling. My travel mostly lead me to some or the other conclusion about a lot of things. When we go out and see different places, there are a lot of things that attract you, lot of things that make you think, lot of things that make you feel sad, lot of things that make you feel angry and quite a lot of things that make you feel helpless.... In my recent visits, believe me or not but I have gone through all these emotions... Ya but I can tell you the feeling of helplessness is the worst one... It shakes your mind, and every single nerve of the body from head to toe....

We mostly prefer travelling by car if the destination allow us to.... Travelling by road gives you a very good chance to observe life... Life of a tree, a plant, an animal, a butterfly and of course, life of a human.... With such a pain, a buffalo carrying five times the weight it should carry.... Head tilted to one side, he was doing his duty for survival... His face showed no sign of pain but somewhere deep inside my heart I was pinched.... What if I was asked to do that????? Then I included his master in my thoughts.... With his economic conditions, what else could he do???? I saw a lot of similar cases.... Horses and cows carrying stuffs that we cant even imagine..... I took few minutes to sob over it, and ordered my mind to avoid any such scene that would make me feel helpless.... In simple words, like a coward I was running away from my thoughts that were revolutionizing... I somewhat controlled my thoughts and diverted my mind... But every single time I went out, I saw things that I wanted to avoid...... And it made me more and more upset...... Those scenes started speaking to me, it looked out as if they were asking something.... But I continuously neglected them and continued to be the helpless one...

My last trip was to Jamshedpur, my birth place, where I learned the biggest lesson of my life... On the day of my departure, I saw something that changed my thought process completely.... I had to buy a pen drive, so my husband and I were wandering from one place to another in Telco.... It was early morning so most of the shops were closed,,,, We finally decided to give one last try..... So, we rushed to Azad market.... The shops there where opened, the fruit vendors were cleaning there stalls..... I can never forget what I saw there.... A thin, light brown color dog with his tail inside, was standing on the road.... Vehicles were passing by, but he was standing still..... He could not move because his hand was infected( the condition is called as Gangrene).... His had was swollen, it had a very deep cut which might have lead to this condition.....I could see patches of fungus on his skin,,,,, The septic was spreading and there are chances that this could lead to his death if not treated.... I was so captivated by his condition that it took me some moments to control my self.... He was not screaming out of pain, neither was he asking for help because that poor animal cant speak... He cant express his pain... He had no one with him.... I saw the fruit vendor shouting at him... He wanted him to go away but the dog was in no mood to walk..... He could not I guess.... I, like an idiot, like some stupid audience just stood there and felt helpless....  I tried to imagine the kind of pain he might be in but frankly it was too much to imagine... when we get a small cut also, we panic, and shout out for help.... And in few seconds a whole lot of people surround us..... but he, he had no one around him... he stood alone....  I can never forget the expression that I saw in his eyes... My heart throbbed, sobbed and what not.... But I could not do anything for him..... I ran from there...... I cried for several moments but this time it was it.... It changed something in me.... something that I know off.... The feeling of helplessness killed me from inside and I took a decision..... A decision that will change my life......